Thursday, November 09, 2006

My Goal

Ok, everyone! I have an announcement.

I'm getting skinny.

Ok, well, that's the goal anyways. I am SO sick of being like, "I remember when I could fit those jeans", or "I can't remember the last time I felt attractive" so I have decided to do something about it. Between a change in eating habits after getting married, a reaction to my birth control pills, and lack of motion (i.e. when not working, I'm sitting watching tv or playing computer) I have gained..brace yourselves..65 pounds from my lowest weight. That's right. And I'm sick of being embarrased of the rolls I have now on my waist-I'm not comfortable with myself, and I hate it. I know that eating too much and doing too little are a big ..ok major..part of it. So! I have put myself on a rigid diet, for starters. Thankfully, the four bags of chocolate Rob bought for the trick or treaters is totally gone now, so it should make at least starting the diet a little easier. As for the exercise..I'm planning on walking the dog more, but really, who likes exercise? A crosstrainer is on my Christmas list, but even used, it could be anywhere close to $100.00. Crosstrainers are fun, they're about the only thing I could see myself sticking with. I find I don't have the time or inclination for exercise DVDs, and frankly, I find them boring as well. It's sucky though, because @ San Fran, especially now with the 120 boxes of stock to unload, I'm wiped after a day's work, I don't have the energy to work out. And I don't do a lot of actual exercise at San Fran..some hard lifting, but nothing that is really a work out. Anyways, I don't know why I'm posting this.. I think just to keep my resolve in my head, that this time I really AM going to do it. My last couple attempts at a diet were forgotten within the week..going to the gym with Tina lasted what, a couple months? And again, my fault we stopped. This time though, this is it. I was lieing awake last night thinking about it, and it was the last straw. Rob started dating me when I was AT my skinniest-125 pounds. When we were married, I was about 160ish. Now - 190.. as embarrasing as it is to admit. I still remember when we'd started dating though-I asked Rob if he'd still like me if I was fat, if I started gaining weight. He said, "Of course! Mind you, 160 or so and that's getting pretty bad" or something along those lines. I remember something about 160. And if I'm way past that? I can't help but wonder if he actually still does find me attractive. And that's NOT something I enjoy thinking! So, here it is. My goal-By the time it's summer, I want to be 150. Yeah. That's 40 lbs in like 8 months, so that's 5 lbs a month. I can do that! I can probably even beat that, if I stick with it. The more overweight you are, the faster you lose weight at first. It's the plateau that kills..Anyways, to sum it up..encourage me >_<>


Blogger Brynne said...

I totally support you! It's gonna be a tough road, but stick to it! I'm up around 170, and I got winded at school climbing 2 flights of stairs. So my goal isn't so much getting skinny, as it is getting in shape. Between the two there is a huge difference.

But you know what? It's totally do-able. Cause my mom was a little higher than you are now, and over the past 6 months or so, she's lost like, 40lbs, and she's totally wearing my old pants that are too small for me.

11:21 PM  
Blogger The_Phat_Kid said...

Sarah! I totally support you as well. When i got back from Africa I felt so disgusted with myself, i had gained 25 pounds from Outtatown. it was brutal, and its not so much that i felt unattractive around terrell, but around myself. i am so glad you are doing this for you and no one else - you are the one that matters in this situation. and i'm sure rob still thinks you're gorgeous and loves just the same. :)
this summer i lost 15 pounds of the 25 i gained - thats right if i lost 10 more of all fat, i would be the same weight that i was summer after grade 12. now what i did this summer, was well frankly work exhausted me. but i cut back on portions, i was eating weight watcher portions with my mom, and all healthy things - yougurt, salads, chicken, and very few sweets. also for excercise i went for walks on my lunch hour. i ate, then went outside (you could stay in the mall), put on headphones and walked a brisk pace for a good 30-45 minutes. and i tell you, when your body is used to chocolate and no excercise, that makes a difference!!
all the best in your endevor - you can totally do it!!!

8:21 AM  
Blogger Allison said...

firstly, Janna, you spelled endeavor wrong but I adore you and secondly, yes, Sarah, love, I support you can totally do it if you keep at it and healthily. Don't get frusterated if it takes longer than you expected and also, I like your goal's realistic! I love you!

11:14 AM  
Blogger Big Mac mama said...

Thank you all! I'm going to print your comments and put them on my frige, to remind me that I'm believed in..if that makes sense, and to keep my goal in my brain.

7:05 PM  

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